Happy Mother’s Day!!

Happy Mother’s Day To My Mom, I wouldn’t trade you for anyone you’re one of a kind and God blessed me with you wed be lost without you Love You Always

Swallowing Air

All the time i end up swallowing air drinking etc then i choke and throw up air literally and I hurt so bad from it it’s another one of those things where you yell this is bullshit!! And still end up having to live with it too

Games

Every game I play is more painful than just playing spider solitaire it’s the only one i can handle that keeps me and my body calmer poor Dottie lays by me I can’t chase her as much I feel so bad for her being next to me but solitaire vs chase my body is so mean 😞Daddy played card games a lot he knew soo many with a single deck

So…

So dam sick of being in this much pain all the fucking time except for short times of relief it all hurts soo badd

Ridiculous

Nausea and sick dnd hurting and dizzy stupid dystonicseizures I feel it all the cold floor when i fell the pain of my body thrashing still sick but so trapped and how many.. years I’ve been through hundreds of these I can’t even be unconscious i feel it all why am I still here why couldn’t I die with Karli why do i have to suffer so many more years God’s Will but I really wish I was gone too it just all hurts everything I’m so sick of it

Frozen 2 Review

Contains spoilers.. it’s cruel i lost my little sister and dad, and watching them start happy together is great.. but when olaf dies in her arms and she thinks her sister died too,which she basically did she should’ve at least had Kristof by her but no all seperate extreme grieving only for ta da her sister lives but as a element so I consider her partly dead from that and it’s like a rule Elsa always is queen it’s the great part of a magical queen.. and now she’s so far away in the forest this just isn’t a movie for kids even when Olaf comes back with Elsa showing up it hurts because I can’t have mine back that easy it’s not fair andso not a movie I’d think Disney would make and release early during coronavirus not that I don’t love the release early for most it’s magical and happy but for some like me it’s not a very good ending it’s aweful

Coronavirus

It’s like people understand how sick they can get and wash hands don’t go out by sick people do they understand that’s how we always have to feel when they don’t care what they do with illness that could be deadly to many still.. even the flu, but this is attacking them badly so now they all act like they should usually be cautious

I know unfair

Life is unfair.. the hard part is accepting it s you go through it. I know it’s not the worst I know there’s a heck of a lot more things in the world which i wish I could help but that’s prayers right. It shouldn’t be a big thing my mouth has been breaking forever but my front two teeth it’s not fair to lose. I can’t sit still for dentists and they can’t do surgery either and I’m allergic to the main ingredient of most toothpastes. I don’t care how it makes me sound but it hurts to lose so much all the time. To have to keep going and living God’s Will. It’s just so unfair 😢