We’ve been having bad weather that attacks me through my body which seizures and shakes and jerks and hurts so bad and mom says i have night ones too.. the lightning was like an eeg horrible mean.
There’s a horrible Empty i feel, how do you grief right anyways.. i see where Sabrael would hed chasing the mice away in my room.. i see ellie laying with Mom while her kids ben n dottie play and i see Karli and Daddy in so many places everything is so empty I just push it away in my mind is that even sane i guess nothing really is and I’m really not sane to begin with and healthy is a word not used anymore i even feel empty for the friends i had helping me.. i just wanna scream angry and sad and frustrated and sick of it all so hard it’s all so hard and im soo sick of empty and hurting from jhd and allergic and ashthma and thyroid and food balance and medicine i love God and Jesus i am so very much blessed even when it seems i cant see all of it and i talk and feel because I think it’s because I’m human and he died for us to be saved anyways, I don’t ever mean anything against Faith I’ll die at God’s Will and God Winks are amazing and i can still feel so
Empty and Helpless and everything I’m just screaming and crying and am here. One day i pray I’ll find out why and be with everyone and God and Jesus and suffer no more. Amen Alleluia I can’t wait and i can wait at the same time because it seems dying is confusing like that.
Showing the Honesty and Truth in Juvenile Huntington’s Disease is very hard considering everyone who doesn’t want it shown, or to see it. They only put Adult HD and Nothing about the jhdkids. Huntington’s Disease and Juvenile Huntington’s Disease are VERY Different. For Years Of My Life My Journey Has Strived To Show This.. As First Seen Probably For Alot In The Real Huntington’s Disease Video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Dhj2gRvWn3w
the first of many I made, including ones of myself sicker in a seperate account jhdvlogger and Mom’s made one’s also jym092000.. and of course into jhdkids curejhd, i’ve met many many many amazing families and stories and kids and added to jhdkids.com and jhdkids fb and that’s when I ran into Justin and Autumn’s Story With Londen (Wife & Mother) It started as her story In videos etc she posted earlier Like In This Youtube One https://youtu.be/gDH_gbxBjcQ
Then Their Story Started Going Farther and Telling The Truth The Whole Way.. Now Autumn Is Shown All Over With Her Mom Telling Them The Truth Behind Everything and Education So Many People!! It’s Incredible, They’re Truly Heroic.. They Just Won The JHD Youth Award At Convention (Virtually) Which I’ll Share The Link Of Here From Their TikTok
I have to admit, being so sick I was and can be very worried about the future for juvenile huntington’s disease awareness. I’m writing this right now, because I want you to know before I’m too sick to write this down that I’m very thankful and blessed and that we all should be to have them blow everything up with the Honesty Of Juvenile Huntington’s Disease VS The truth people keep trying to keep.. It’s A Cruel Disease a Personal Hel* and These Kids Deserve Their Own Help!! And I Truly Believe Autumn Londen and Justin’s Story and Awareness Can Keep The Future Bright, Because I Can’t Anymore Like That.. So Find Them!! Her TikTok Name is @londen_for_real and All The Families Who Have Lost Someone Or Still Are Do Have Support Networks Like Kinser For Meaghan etc and Things Set Up Even Up To HDYO Is Amazing.. So Please Watch What You’re Using You’re Fundraising and Efforts For Because It’s All So Complex Be Careful.. I hope i can meet you one day Autumn, Keep Smiling Even When You’re Going Down Ok <3..
All the time i end up swallowing air drinking etc then i choke and throw up air literally and I hurt so bad from it it’s another one of those things where you yell this is bullshit!! And still end up having to live with it too
Every game I play is more painful than just playing spider solitaire it’s the only one i can handle that keeps me and my body calmer poor Dottie lays by me I can’t chase her as much I feel so bad for her being next to me but solitaire vs chase my body is so mean 😞Daddy played card games a lot he knew soo many with a single deck
Nausea and sick dnd hurting and dizzy stupid dystonicseizures I feel it all the cold floor when i fell the pain of my body thrashing still sick but so trapped and how many.. years I’ve been through hundreds of these I can’t even be unconscious i feel it all why am I still here why couldn’t I die with Karli why do i have to suffer so many more years God’s Will but I really wish I was gone too it just all hurts everything I’m so sick of it