Painful

I kno its not on purpose but when kids in music videos sing about being torn apart to the smallest piece and surviving its like they dont know what hell this is seizures waking up on floors noises changing everything cruel its like a world full of death because thats how bad ive been sick like death i curl up but then my system gets mad and hold in air n makes me even more sick and hot and cold and tired but too movements to sleep even after meds but the meds Just need the right timing n its so confusing gravity hates me my brain hates me more all the pqinf nerves scream in my body some n i cant stop frowing up bc my systems too slow to digest it all n my inhaler kind is gonna be changed bc the world just changes n they think its better i think its ridiculous if it works leave it