Watched

I knew in school i was being watched and listened to and special things put in place but being in my iep i knew so it was great to know but not so great knowing what was happening and being watched and the special things comforting but completely exposed like when you see people talking about how to deal with things and being the one who’s sick you can tell when you’re being specialized like talk to them like this etc and it’s like I’m not a disease but I’m sick with one and people use it to advantage and people use it for manipulating and others just to hurt sorry it’s been so hard to write as much it takes an hour just to decide if i want a candy and if I should reach for it or for when it’s soo delayed bad