Whyy

im not used to my heart physically hurting this bad chronically low yes but this hurts so bad and feels so wrong and the top of my head has been buzzing but thats been normal for seizing lately too its been such bad seizing so much and my sleep and i’ve been unusually very very sick progressive? virus? for almost 2 weeks now if im dying its here in bed in my room with my fur kids and family hopefully but it still hurts so bad and just because i want to die and im where i want to, doesnt mean the pain is any less importantt