You get stuck unable to go backwards where it was better so you only miss it, going forwards unable to change what you wish you could, unable to do whatever the hell the disease takes from you living with pain all the time, and forward only usually comes with more progression symptoms pain loss grieving.. and when you’re in the present it seems like where you’re sitting isn’t the best of places to be. Just Stay. It’s all you can really do, just try and stay.