frusterated this is fuc*ing mess i can go through all this torture and i can do nothing about it nothing i just have to do it this is hel* i just want, i dont know i want out, i want people to stop turning from me and care, i want to get out of this body, all of this if it was just a tad diff would be more lethal like the seizures but apparently i should suffer more then even that this is bullshi* 😭