Shards

After seeing and feeling what this antibiotic can do i’m literally scared and i have 10 days of it to get rid of the infection and without it it’d be one of the meds that would kill me straight off, i’m scared to take it i don’t want to it hurts like glass shards in me and everything feels weird and i feel like i cant breathe and seizures rise and everything’s worse and i literally fear for my life fear but welcome also, but if i’m going to die does it have to be this painful please lord allow me to pass away peacefully and not have to feel all of this pain amen. The medicine could go any way at any moment, but so could the disease. Getting through this a breath at a time. If the extreme head pain doesnt stop they’ll have to do more tests.